just a short update .

currently in class .

now in class having presentation .
it is th third meeting but here ie am blogging .
(insert laughs)
have lab lesson for today .
dont knw for what fcuk ask me to wear lab coat when it is a dry lab session .
just using lappy also must wear labcoat ?
whatever laas dey !
went second break with GuiPing and Hajar .
had a talk with them .
and ie think ie need to apologise to Jovel'Mei .
cos ie accidentally took her ezlink card to school causing her w/o ezlink card today .
hoping for lesson to end soon .
so that ie can go home .
im tireeddd luhrs .
UTs is starting next week .
and ie havent start study .
ie had a strong feeling that im going to pronounce dead for maths .
ie had been partial for almost every lesson .
hoping that some kind soul will offer a hand to me and teach me math .
but im quite confident for mai molecular and cell biology and cognitive though .
time is ticking .
and ie should reallys start luhrs .

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im going to put relationship matters aside for th time being .
ie got no time to go and care about it .
all ie want now is to shop and start studying for mai UTs .
im broke recently laas .
such a pathetic bytch now .
oh mai god !~

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most probably ie wont be coming to school on next monday .
cos even ib ie come ,,
ie will partial in th end .
so why waste th time coming ?
ie think ie might be going to sing k with Jovel'Mei and ShiHan .
but not confirm yet .
will be confirm by this weekend .
and we might be going play pool aftermath .
it all depends .

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im still thinking whether tonight should ie go to Jurong Bowl and support mai mum ?
she's having bowling competition tonight .
hopefully she will give it a good one yeas !
im soooo tired and sooooooo exhausted .
ie seriously needs a breather .
please give it to me .
ie feel that ie do not have time for maiself .
WTH !~

is going to be in a point form posting again .
sorrys readers .
ie will start mai normal blogging form from this weekends onwards .
and ie promise that it will be a proper update .

Sunday

• woke up at around 12plus .
• prepare maiself
• cabbed to Jurong Bowling centre
  
• bowling session with parents
  
• did not play well that day except for th last round
  
• went 5head for dinner .
• ate th zichar that intro mai zu chao lai lo
  
• and it seriously sucks big time
  
• not gonna go back there again
  
• cab to Jp with Jovel'Mei
  
• peii Jovel'Mei to buy bdae present for her friend
  
• arcade for awhile
  
• went 9head for bubble tea
• head home aftermath
  
• redo mai pp report
  
• slept at around 12plus
  

monday

• woke up at 5plus by ShengDa'sillyboy call
  
• was shocked and surprised
  
• prepare maiself
  
• actually wanna go find him but he fall asleep
  
• went to school for math instead
• partial at first breakout
  
• went home
  
• and meet Shengda'sillyboy aftermath
  
• ate mac
  
• everything seems pretty much th same
  
• meet ShiHan at pioneer mall and went to 9head
  
• tabao lunch for Jovel'Mei
  
• back home
  

throughout this half year ,,
ie thought through alot of things .
somethings are just not meant to be .
no matter how hard ie try ,,
how much effort ie put in for yoo ,,
nothing will change th fact that god is playing a sport on us .
but neverminds .
ie alr understand things through .
by embracing a person ie love ,, and he loving someone else ,,
is like im embracing a cactus ,,
th tighter ie embrace ,,
ie ended pricking maiself hard ,,
and it bleeds profusely .
ie also understand that loving someone doesnt means that ie had to be by his side ,, and leaving someone also doesnt means that ie no longer love him .
is just that ie had accept th fact that ie wasnt th best for him . im leaving him so that someone better than me can own him .
and ie know that letting go of someone might be hard ,,
but this is th best way to make th other stay .
There is no two things that can occupy th same space at th same time .
ie think this time round im gonna bid a final goodbye luhrs .
yoo hurt me too deep
and ib ie ever hurt yoo in one way or th other ,,
im so so soooo sorrys .
ie miss mai sillyboy :((
but things will never be th same ever again .

as promised ,,
ie had came for an update .
just a short update on what happened recently .

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didnt attend much lessons last week .

Monday

• late and partial for math lesson
• went out for a movie with b ; Darah
• walk-ed awhile and head-ed home

Tuesday

• stay-ed full in school for MCB
  
• went home straight after school

Wednesday

• stay-ed full in school for Cognitive
  
• went home again .

Thursday

• partial for Pharmacology & Toxicology
• went home and put mai things
• meetup with ShiHan
  
• Arena for pool
• bus-ed to Jp
• chanced into Jovel
  
• LJS for lunch
  
• Westmall to meet Yuer0ngq and Kelvin
  
• Back to Jp for dinner ; Laksa
• went back home and took money
  
• Safra for k-session
• went home at around 2plus
  

Friday

• skip Patient Care lesson
• meet b
  
• went home at around 8plus

Saturday

• meet b
  
• huge quarrel broke out
  
• we broke off
  
• went boatquay with kellen'kors ,, Yuer0ngq ,, Steven'kors ,, Kelvin and Bei Hou Ling
• sang and drank
  
• train-ed home at 11plus
  
• tabao cutlet for supper

Sorrys that everything is in point form .
cos ie kind of lazy to update .
cos ie had too many things to update and ie dont knw where to start .
so ie just put everything in point form .

things had end-ed between us .
feeling kind of relieved though .
details will be update-d tmr .
just back from boatquay ; qbbar .
nw going to sleep alr .
till tmr .

im nw currently in class .
just finish mai second break .
and im having a stomachache due to th stoopid green milk tea .
dont know why lehs .
each time ie drink ,,
mai stomach will aches .

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oh yarhs .
im officially attachh.ed to Stahn on th 09102009 .
sians .
im nw in class having stoopid maths module which ie loathe it alot .
is so definitely nt mai interest .
luckily tmr will be MCB .
will be meeting b♥ tonight .
and b♥ is reallys kind enuff to wants to travel all th way to pioneer and meet me nors .
Thanks b♥ .
ie appreciate everything yoo have done .
yoo nw good nors .
ie studying and yet yoo sleeping .
k laas .
ie go do mai powerpoint luhrs .
till then !~

Apparently ,, school had just start-ed after th longgg holidays .
which means that ,,
ie will have lesser time to blog and not much things to blog though .
school start-ed on th 05 Oct 2009 .
today is th third day .
let me say what had happen for th 3days .

05 Oct 2009 ,, Monday

woke up early in th morning to check that freaking timetable
and came to realised that th timetable was not out yet .
neverminds .
went to get maiself prepare and head-ed to school .
ONE STOP CENTRE to ask for mai class and they told me that ie might not have any class today .
ie was like wtf ....
yoo think ie stay 2blocks away from school ?
then they asked me to go and ask mai programme chair .
and she check for me .
after awhile ,,
she told me that ie was in W15M and th module was Mathematics .
mai mind was in a blank at first after losing touch with Maths like 1yr plus .
and th topic was still like vectors which ie had clean forgotten .
gotten th hang of it after awhile .
classmates was fine too .
wait-ed for Haylie and Harz to end school .
walk-ed to CWP together and train home .
daily routine starts again .

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06 Oct 2009 ,, Tuesday

it is a 830am class again .
force maiself to woke up .
module was Molecular and Cell biology .
was in th same class as Shyh Shyurng .
class and teammates was alright .
went for second brk with Harz .
class ended early ,, 245pm .
waited for Harz and Haylie .
walk-ed to CWP .
LJS for dinner with Harz and her siblings .
train-ed home aftermath .
daily routine begans .

07 Oct 2009 ,, Wednesday

today is also another 830am class .
woke up reluctantly .
train-ed to school .
Cognitive module today .
today problem was a little boring and dry .
second brk with Haylie .
chatted quite alot with Indah (not sure did ie spell it correctly) .
lesson ended 5mins earlier .
went home straight .

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do not ever comment on people when yoo are not better off yourself .
what rights do yoo think yoo have to comment on people ?
yoo are wonderful ?
yoo are perfect ?
or are yoo flawless ?
if not ,,
jollywell STFU !
dont ever let me hear urre comments about me again .

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thanks Stahn for peii-ing me chat this few days .
he had been v.good to me and ie reallys appreciate it .
im thinking ...
mayb we will work it out ?
ie dont know .
it depends on how it goes .

despite sleeping 'early' ytd {5am plus} ,,
ie woke up early today .
and ie mean E A R L Y alrights {9am} .
prepare-d maiself and ie WALK-ED to Jp .
ie know im mad .
but ie like walking while listening to songs .
and at th same time ,,
Stahn was peii-ing me chatting on th phone . {Thanks :))}
reach-ed BoonLay control and meetup with th peeps .
Th peeps who meet us at BoonLay are :
PX ,, Wan ,, Azmi ,, Angela ,, Haz ,, Zul ,, Priya ,, Haylie ,, Nesh and YunSheng .
First Stop : Redzwan's house . {Thanks his mum for cooking wonderful brunch for us.}
train-ed to Woodlands .
meet Sarmila at Control before bus-ed to Haz's house .
slaack-ed ,, camwhore-d and bus-ed to Azmi's house . {Thanks for th food yoo cook though ie didnt eat as ie was full .}
bus-ed to Zul's house aftermath .
and ie swear that th journey was longggg .
fall asleep in th bus .
seriously sleepy :/
lepak in Zul's house awhile then went to th last stop of th day ; Haylie's house .
MeiLing came at around 9plus . {so late nors !}
chatt-ed lots of things with her .
Pastamania for dinner .
left her house and train-ed home at 10plus .
reach home at 12plus .
an enjoyable day together .
happy get-together with W54N peeps .
will upload th peektures once ie get them .

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ie think ie alr know what yoo mean luhrs .
and know that we will never be together no matter how much effort ie tries to put in .
ie know that ie could never holds a place in urre heart .
not even a small pathetic tiny corner .
ie alr did mai best to fight for mai happiness .
though it fails now ,,
ie got no regrets .
at least ie got th courage to try .
ie will try to give yoo up .
but im nt able to tell another guy that ie love him ,, ie miss him or hold his hands . {at least for now :/}
cos yoo are still all that matters now .
but ie believe that ie will be able to let yoo go little by little .
and one day ,,
ie will be able to let yoo go totally .
by that time ,,
th reasons for mai tears and happiness will no longer be yoo .
thanks for letting me know how does heartache feels over and over again .
thanks for th zillions pieces of shattered hearts yoo gave me as a gift .
ie wil treasure and keep th memories yoo once gave me ,,
but ie will never love yoo like how ie did in th past again .
Takekaires :))

yesterday was a reallys v.happy day for me .
super uber duper happy :))
nothing much for th afternoon .
stay-ed at home and use comp .
went out pack lunch in th afternoon ,, bought bubbletea at th same time .
back home ,, use comp again .
went out to PioneerMall with mum in th evening .
bought some groceries and dinner back home .
ate ,, use comp .
receive-d Shengda's call .
told mum that ie want-ed to go out ,,
and miracle ,,
she allow .
bath-ed and prepare-d ,,
train-ed to Tamp and took bus 29 to ChangiVillage to meet Shengda .
walk-ed with him back to th chalet .
at th start ,,
there was a slight awkwardness .
silence here and there .
reach-ed chalet ,,
shengda went bbq .
he damn funny laas .
cooked sotong ,,
and he feed me eat then ask me nice marhs ?
ie say 'ehhh ,, like not cook lehs .'
then he say 'reallys mehs ?' {he try one and give a weird look}
he say 'reallys not cook lehs . ie go cook again .'
th second round turn out v.tasty .
then he go and cook-ed prawns .
and and and ...
yoo know what ?
he peel and feed me lehs . {insert laughs}
thanks yeas ! :))
and ie think his fwens pour some liquor into mai orange juice and it taste so bitter nors .
he then help me finish that cup of 'liquor orange juice' .
help-ed him pack-ed up stuffs then go bathe and back to room .
peii him play game awhile then he hit th bed liaos luhrs .
im suffering from insomnia .
cant seem to sleep th whole night .
even though he is right beside me .
throughout th night ,,
he keep on coughing nors .
hear luhrs also heartpain :/ {recover soon alrights}
woke up at 8plus .
slack-ed in th room awhile . {chitchatting}
left th chalet at 10plus .
he send me to th bus-stop he then went home .

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reach-ed home ,, wash-ed up ,, use comp till evening then went ShiHan house for dinner .
after dinner ,,
chitchatting or gossiping session yoo called that .
went down to buy dessert ,, ate and went home .

mai love for yoo started on 13042009 .
and it had never once change .
ie think this year birthday is th best birthday luhrs .
didnt expect that ie was able to meet yoo th day after mai bdae .
ie guess this is th best birthday present ie received this year .
although is late for one day .
ytd brings back alot of our past memories .
ytd yoo took down th fake mask that ie had been wearing for 5mths .
and bring a genuine smile to mai face .
it had been so longggg since ie smiled like ytd .
although between us there is lots of obstacles and stuffs ,,
but ie hope that we can overcome everything together .

this is th last chance that im giving yoo .
hope that yoo will treasure it well .
dont ever leave me again alright ?
ie knew that ie needed yoo alot .
lastly ,,
ie love yoo still :D

Trust is to built all over again :))